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My Father’s Stetson

It was June of 1980 and I wanted to get my Dad a present for Father’s Day.  My Father always wore a hat.  It was a felt fedora most of the year and a straw fedora in the Summer.  He always had boxes for his hats and he had a box that had the Stetson logo on it but he never owned a Stetson.  Stetsons were considered the Cadillac of hats.  So I set about getting him Stetson for Father’s Day.   In downtown Pittsburgh at that time there was still a haberdashery that sold men’s hats.  I walked in and asked if I could purchase a grey felt Stetson fedora for my father.  The salesman asked me are you sure you don’t want a straw fedora as it is the season for straw hats?  The store actually was only displaying straw fedoras at that time.  I explained to the salesman that my Dad was always a hat man but he never owed a felt Stetson Fedora.  The salesman then went upstairs to the storage area and was able to procure a grey felt Stetson for me. On Father’s day I gave Stetson to my Father.   I must pause here and tell you that my Father could be very sarcastic person (in the good sense) at times.  He didn’t take life too serious.  (My family members will tell you that I definitely inherited his sarcasm gene.)  My father thanked me for the gift but as it was summer he said suppose I never get the chance to wear this?   I told him in a sarcastic reply I’ll put it on top of your coffin when they bury you.   The hat sat in a box until later that year as he consider a very formal hat not for everyday use.  In November of that year one of my aunts passed away and as we were getting ready to go to the funeral service I reminded my Father that he should wear his Stetson to the funeral.  He did wear to my aunt’s funeral so he did finally get to wear an authentic Stetson.   Those that want to can now stop reading but there is more to the story which was foreshadowed already.  On the Tuesday before Thanksgiving of that same year, I did not have to college but was going into town to get my haircut.  I saw my Father go to the kitchen as I was leaving and said goodbye and see you later.  I then went and got my haircut after the haircut I stopped at the college to wish those that I worked with as a work-study a Happy Thanksgiving.  When I got there, there was a message to call home.  I called home and my uncle answered the phone and told me to come home as it looks bad but wouldn't tell me what.   I then took a bus home from the college.  At that time there was a detour on my bus route which brought me a block away from my house.  As the bus was approaching the bus stop  I could see from the bus that my older brother’s pickup truck was at our house.  It wasn’t looking good since I knew my brother should be working.   Yes the worst had happened my Father had dropped over dead from an abdominal aneurysm.  We knew he had it but in 1980 there were no procedures to repair it.   And now if you haven’t figured out how the story of my Father’s Stetson ends, when the time came for the graveside committal service I told the funeral director that I wanted the Stetson on top of the coffin when it was lowered in to the grave.  He asked me are you sure that’s what I wanted.  But that’s when I explained to him the conversation that my Father and I had from Father’s Day.   The only Stetson hat that my Father every owned and only worn once now rests with him for eternity. 

Copyright 2017 Sean Petrisko

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